chemotherapy regime will understand how helpless you can feel. There is little you can do for yourself or for your family Any sense of providing security or safety for your loved ones is robbed from you the moment that first chemotherapy trolley rattles in and stops by the side of your bed. As sentences became paragraphs I began to sense that there was something I could do. Developing the book gave me a purpose in surviving the year. The prospect of giving something back and raising some money for the charities that had helped us. It provided a much needed aim. I have never been worried about catching sight of myself in the mirror for some vain reason, but during that year I encountered a macabre image staring back at me, following my every move. It was difficult to believe it was actually me - I had changed so much in a few months due to my battle with Captain Chemo. As paragraphs turned into chapters I felt sure I would \'go the distance\' and reach the end of my twelve rounds with this powerful adversary. My Hodgkin\'s lymphoma is in remission. I can play football and walk the dog, sometimes at the same time. Certainly, I am less keen to look in the mirror these days - I wonder why I ever was!..